I create games everywhere I go. It is a practice that makes life fun, and puts me in the mindset of playing full out. It also detaches me from a particular result. I may win or lose; the important thing is playing well and playing often. My personal goals are games.
However, I want to note that I am attached to a few of the outcomes. In fact, I almost deleted the goals from this entry, so that I would not have to own that I didn't achieve the result. This is not playing the game, this is surviving the year. The only goals I'm fully attached to are the financial goals, although there is a faint echo of the biceps measurement goal that returns from time to time.
CSA didn't do as well as I declared it would (although I made 100% more money this year over last year), and I want to beat myself up for not taking more powerful actions. This is a perilous path: after all, the point of shooting high is to do better than you did before, not to actually hit the high mark. I risk not acknowledging what I did accomplish. My credit card debt is manageable, but it annoys me that I didn't say no to a few more of life's pleasures in order to pay it off completely. Again, I cut down on a lot of personal debt in 2006, and I am in more powerful control of my finances than ever before, so being attached to whether I hit the mark or not isn't productive.
And the biceps: this one I laugh about. But oh, I want it. You should see 2007's crazy goal for this one.
10 Goals for 12 Months
1. $(x) in CSA revenues, and one 70% time staff member. All admin costs paid for (including 50% accountant).
Result: I made 78% of the gross revenue. Had a 15% time staff member (freelance). Didn't pay admin costs, my mother is my accountant and does the work for free (that is going to change in 2007).
2. I save $x with all credit card debt paid.
Result: Not achieved. Close. Will be accomplished in first 4 months of 2007.
3. I visit Shambhala Center for Buddhist Meditation 12 times in the pursuit of spiritual development.
Result: Achieved. I visited Shambhala at least 15 times, and took a class there.
4. Kimble is fully trained.
5. 15.5" biceps, 165 lbs.
Result: 15" biceps, 170lbs. The biceps measurement causes me no end of agony.
6. 1 published project.
Result: Not accompmlished.
7. Tropolism is profitable.
Result: Not accomplished. This goal was nearly eliminated mid-year, when it became clear Tropolism wasn't going to pan out as a revenue stream. However, Tropolism has contributed to my status as an architect, and has led to important business connections, which will improve my firm's bottom line.
8. Support my own space, or expand into the loft studio I share with others.
Result: Accomplished in that I have committed to expanding into the loft studio. Not accomplished in that I don't start paying for it until January 2007.
9. My home is complete.
Result: Accomplished. I installed my library mid-year, and with that, everything I owned had its place. No more book boxes.
10. Begin a new long-term relationship.
Result: Not accomplished, but I have some promising entries on the dance card. That's right, plural. I'm ready to share my life with someone again, and am builidng relationships of love. At the end of 2005, I felt complete with my last relationship. I spent a lot of 2006 completing other bits of that relationship, something I didn't expect. I only started dating again, with the freedom of being in love, in November.