"You either find compassion or forget you were once there."
After all the work I've done in the last few years, I was not ready for this. I met someone. I am interested in him. And then for the first time in several years, I felt deep, warm feelings. No explanation, no understanding, no source. They just showed up. I thought, with some regret, I had evolved into an experienced adult, someone who had a lot of love for the world, but was also unable to be moved much one way or the other, unless I pushed myself, or had a coach to guide me. But there it was. I was just filled with warmth, understanding, compassion, interest. These feelings hadn't left me, nor had I evolved out of them. They are simply triggered by someone completely different than what I was expecting.